Yearning For Freedom

 Almost the 4th of July. Not really celebrated anymore, freedom hasn't been a thing for a while... I'm running out of things to say. I'm running out of things to think. I don't know what I am. I don't know who I am. I don't know why I am. But since freedom is on topic. I should say I have been yearning for it recently.









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