Handwriting

 The only way I ever feel heard is by writing in here. I'm not writing to anyone. or for anyone. So I think... I'm hearing myself? I guess I'm my only friend. which sucks but at least writing to myself is better than nothing. I feel like after I write in here, I come out at least slightly better. Or maybe with a better understanding of my own problems? Is this what therapy is like? am I my own therapist? I've never really thought of it that way. I don't really try to make myself feel better. There's no part of me that knows how to get through this. But just writing is fun, and makes me feel like part of me is here to stay. 

  I can't speak, and what's even weirder is that I've never learned sign language. So if I try and mention I'm mute, people will start using sign language. which is why I bring sticky notes and a pen everywhere. And even then most people can't read my hand writing. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE.

That's the closest font to my style. Perhaps I practiced a little too much?😅 I usually dumb it down when talking with others. Something like this. still stylish but readable.