Existential Crisis

 I hate doing this. That may surprise you all. But I really really wish I could have just been the innocent kid I used to be forever. Well , maybe not forever. I know that’s impossible. I’d have to grow up at some point. But I believe having a good well spent childhood is something you need. Or at least it’s something everybody deserves, and I know not everyone gets it. And maybe if everyone did get a good childhood, there would be less corruption everywhere. It’s harder to be evil when your family truly loves you. It’s harder to bottle up your emotions all day when your family and friends told you it was okay to spill your feelings everywhere. It’s harder to lose friends when you know who it is you’re looking for. And who it is you need to be. A good childhood almost always depends on the parents. And my parents were better than I could possibly imagine at that. It’s not like they spoiled me. They still taught me necessary things I had to do on my own. And they didn’t get me whatever I wanted whenever I wanted it. I don’t really remember asking for all that much, which is solid proof in itself that they were great parents.

I miss them.

If the corrupt people I'm killing had good childhoods would they really have ended up like that? or would they have gone on to love someone, start a family. Maybe open a bakery. And give bread and pastries to those who look like they need a hug. actually. who am I to say they didn't. I don't know anything about them. I judge them based on the look in their eyes. Because I believe the eye is the gateway to the soul. And those with the eyes of a killer are easy to spot... There's also the dilemma that some of the people I kill are wearing head gear that covers their eyes. It's all just a bad excuse. I'm no Bunny. I am not cute. I'm a horrid creature with blood on her hands acting like I'm making a difference.