Bunny Girl Blog

  When I was a kid I remember laying in the dryer full of fresh warm clothes. It was my little place. The warmth felt comforting. I'd stay there till the clothes were cold. Well... Room temperature I suppose. But compared to what they were I'd feel cold and get out.  I thought of this cause I was taking my clothes out of the dryer today. Couldn't help but press them to my chest and feel slightly better from the warmth. Although I wish I could still fit in the dryer. Seems when I need comfort the most I'm too old to fit. 

I used to get the feeling someone was always behind me. Just watching me. You can call it anxiety. I suppose that might have been what it was. Whatever it was it's gone now. All of it is. I don't cry, and yet I don't smile. My music doesn't make me feel anymore. I don't feel like I'm inside my own body anymore... Almost like I'm watching myself in the 3rd person. Wondering what I'll do next... Hm. 

  I don't own a dress :( in this attic I'm staying in I found a box of someone's belongings and saw a dress I really liked but I don't want to just take it. Which is saying a lot coming from me. I stole a PS4 ⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍   But for some reason dresses are too sentimental. This one in particular looked like she had a lot of memories. I couldn't just take a girl's core memories. One day I'll buy a dress. And maybe one day I'll stop killing. And just be a normal girl. 

I like Summer. feels easier to be happy around this time. But I'll be honest, I relate to October a lot more. The October sky is so me😜Always feels like it's about to rain. The clouds aren't perfect and white and fluffy. I'm so good at metaphors, I should write a poem.  also I'm bored of the old font, not sure what logic I was using, choosing a simple one so it would be easier to read for other people. Nobody will ever see this anyway, so what's the dang point of it being readable.